Sore Eyes

I'm a little ashamed to share this but I am starting to be desperate, so I'll share... While praying hard that the help I've been needing will come along somehow.

I have been having serious trouble seeing. Like, seriously troubled. I have been diagnosed with -0.25 and astigmatism since as long as I could remember (around 6th grade or so) and it had never been poorer than that. I never wore my glasses regularly, only at times when I felt like I needed them.

Anyway, my sight got slightly worse when I graduated from uni. My prediction was the sudden increased amount of interaction I had with the computer display for the final semester with the whole final assignment thingy.

So I went to get my eyes re-diagnosed then. The result was -0.50 for the left eye and -0.50 and 0.50 cyl for the right eye (or maybe I had it switched, I don't actually remember). I started to have to wear glasses while driving, but I could still do daily routines well without them.

I also bought soft lenses because I couldn't bear the weight of glasses for too long. So for days when I felt like not wearing glasses, I could still drive calmly and for days when I woke up late I could just grab my glasses and go.

Lately, the reality hasn't been that nice. I realized a few weeks ago that lines were getting blurry. I mean, I know my vision had been imperfect for years, but it was never as bad as what I have nowadays. Even wearing my glasses doesn't do much help. It is almost like seeing things while crying, all day. And actually, that almost happened. I almost broke my tears realizing this.

You will be too, if you were me.

I mean, my job requires ohigh level of vision sensitivity. I'm not Monet, I cannot produce visually pleasing piece of anything without my sight.

And I drive. I love driving my car. Moreover my love to my bike and for running were all too great. I cannot even imagine living without them.

So yeah, I am feeling desperate here. Even worse when I returned from the optician who told me that nothing was getting worse, the dignosed myopia was still correct and should've been enough. Why couldn't this calm me down? Because I don't feel so. I feel nothing is still right whatsoever. I'm the one who's seeing with these eyes.

Anyway, I might just be overreacting. But I'm just too curious to find out what's actually wrong with my eyes. Is that wrong?